Compare/Contrast

What I should be doing:Art History Essay.

What I am doing:

James Franco Screen Test vid for NYT, JAK&JILL, FB

life is dull.

the bigger, the better

I really love this picture. I don't really know why. That night was so weird and funny and awkward and a little sad, but only for me. It was just me and my boys, drinking 40 oz and going to hooters. It was also extremely cold and I had gotten punched in the face on the train. I miss carrying my propack every where and having film all the time. It's weird because most of the pictures I find laying around are from last year, and there's this weird underlying sadness in each one, and it's odd to see how my life has progressed since that time. I don't really know if it has progressed, but I feel a lot better and a lot less stupid, although stupidity will always flow through my veins.

Happy 4/20, I didn't get stoned today but it seemed like everyone else in this city had.

The worst part of my night is when I start playing music on itunes, because Bob Dylan comes up between every few songs, and it brings me down. Fuck Bob Dylan.

uncool/cool

UNcool:
- apparently it's rather uncool to sleep in someone's bathroom. When did this trend start? At the end of the night, the bathroom is the best place in the house.
- getting my cigarettes stolen when there were only 4 other people around. I'm not upset that someone stole my shit, just mostly that it was a new pack and it was my third for the weekend.
- kitties - basically kyrptonite.
- being broke
- actually grooming, and then not really having a reason to be clean.

Cool:
-Steve Berra's awkward ass body, so good. I don't know why but..yes?- The doors of The Garden of Earthly Delights, they make the painting even better
- husky puppies

E.S

Everybody Cares, Everybody Understands - Elliott Smith
It's fare to say that I'm a bit more then obsessed with Elliott Smith. He is just such a fucking mystery, and his lyrics are raw as hell. The whole composition of every song and every album he's ever written is ridiculous. Nights like these, where I feel a little weird and I don't know why I sit around and just scrutinize his lyrics and read comments about other people's opinions of what they may mean. Like I've said before, I have a new favorite Elliott Smith song every week. Lyrics:

Everybody cares, everybody understands
Yes, everybody cares about you
Yeah, and whether or not you want them to
It's a chemical embrace that kicks you in the head
To a pure synthetic sympathy that infuriates you totally
And a quiet lie that makes you want to scream and shout
So here I lay dreaming, looking at the brilliant sun
Raining its guiding light upon everyone
For a moment's rest you can lean against the banister
After running upstairs again and again
From wherever they came to fix you in
But always fear the city's finest follow right behind
You got a pretty vision in your head
A pencil full of poison lead
And a sickened smile illegal in every town
So here I lay dreaming, looking at the brilliant sun
Raining its guiding light upon everyone
Here I lay dreaming, looking at the brilliant sun
Raining its guiding light upon everyone
You say you mean well, you don't know what you mean
Fucking out to stay the hell away
From things you know nothing about

r.i.psb09!!!

It was soo good while it lasted!
It was really a week a straight party, I didn't get a chance to catch my breath! And now all I want to do is:



Although it's sad that break is over and I have to go back to school, I'm a little relieved. A straight week of party was a bit much and now I have a week of distractions and work before the party starts again. Lately I've been having this alcohol induced dreams, and they're so realistic that I can't tell what's a dream and what I've really done. It's hard because when I wake up I have to try to sort everything out, and it's a bit much.

DIPSET DIPSET DIPSET

Good Ol Fashion Rump Shaker (Beastie Boys vs Matt & Kim) - The Hood Internet
one of the best things I've heard in a while with out a doubt, it makes me just feel so fucking happy?

Apathy's a drag

I go through these really odd music obsessions. I listen to three or four main bands for about a month and then drop them and for a couple of months I'm just bored shitless with music until I find another band to be obsessed with. Last winter I only listened to Patti Smith, Richard Hell and the Voidoids, The Supremes and Otis Redding.Then I moved on to Bob Dylan, Elliott Smith and Islands. Then it was Aesop Rock, Buddy Holly and A Tribe Called Quest.
Anyways, I have music ADD. I can't contain myself! Right now I'm rocking with The Buzzcocks, X-Ray Spex and new Grizzly Bear. I don't know what the point of all this was, but I just really love this buzzcocks song and this video is cute.

SB09 is going great! Yesterday I got to meet Johnny Cupcakes!!!!!!
It was a pretty awesomly awkward moment. It was only awkward because I get really nervous when I meet people that I generally think are awesome. I've been following this guy's work for 5 years, so I was pretty stoked. Back in the day I had even made a bootleg of the classic cupcake a crossbones logo.


Also last night I passed out on the bus again, I woke up rather..uh, disoriented to say the least and ended up at 79th and Cicero, how? I don't know. I then convinced my self I could walk the 39 blocks north and about 20ish blocks east to my house. I ended up calling my dad while some guy yelled directions for me from his driveway. I was two suburbs over and I convinced my dad it was because I don't know the southside well, but in reality I'm a pro at handling the streets. I hadn't been that lost since the first time I took the bus.

Final Product

I like what I did to the photos but I couldn't decide what to do for the whole project so I gave up and mad a book. I used liquid water colors, which I never used before, and did complementary colors for the whole thing (thanks freshman year art, I knew making endless color wheels and gradient scales would come in handy!) I cranked the whole thing out in about two hours because MSTRKRFT is playing tonight and I really want to go but I have no one to go with :(. I'll just spend tonight with Earl Hickey, Michael Scott and Lizz Lemon.

Haunted wombs and barren seeds

This is my dad. In my photo class we had to do a project about someone who inspired us, I really couldn't think of anyone that wasn't famous. I was going to do my grandfather but due to laziness I resorted to doing my father. I love him lots. I also look an awful lot like him. He's a pretty cool guy, slightly embarrassing but but in that classic cheesy dad way that's not really embarrassing at all. I have to make some sort of final project with the pictures including text. It's going to be hard because these prints are super shitty last minute prints because for the first couple days of printing I was in a dark room funk. They're really dirty and scratched up but I cranked these babies out on the last day of dark room duty so at least I have something to turn in.

There's a lot I am looking forward to in the next month or so:
-I shaved off my eyebrows, so I'm excited for them to grow back, but kind of not because I draw them on pretty well
-tomorrow mstrkrft is playing a free show down the street from my house, which is fucking exciting because no shows happen by my house except for experimental and punk shows on occassion, but I've only been to two over here
-helping my friend make a funny/sexy gift for her boyfriend's birthday
-the fact that I'm not failing any classes, although I am purely mediocre and have 5 Cs, one B and a D
-I'm starting a new band with my friend Jetzi, it's going to be the cheesy classic acoustic band which are my guiltiest pleasure.
-The fact I just found out the Flaming Lips are playing Pitchfork! I'm sooooo excited for that, they're apparently epic live.
-SPRING BREAK 09 BRING ON THE EPICNESS OF STRAIGHT PARTY, or not, the weather is supposed to be shit
-Grizzly Bear's new album comes out next month, and the start of their tour, hopefully I will be heading to Bloomington, Indiana to see them before they come here for Pitchfork

AHHHHHH, the joy of only having two more months of school. I can picture it now. All I have left to do is concur the ACT, PSAE, AP Art History exam and pass my finals and I'm free! Hopefully I don't fail any classes!