wave of mutilation

I'm at a weird place in my life
I feel stuck
but not really
I miss everything all the time
I want to be sloppy which is bad because it's only Monday
Summer is so close but not here yet
I can't stop thinking about things I shouldn't think about
I'm obsessing over serial killers and footage of people jumping from the burning world trade center
I think all of these are connected
I can't stop listening to the Pixies